I’m standing in
John Lennon’s childhood bedroom at 251 Menlove Avenue
in Liverpool, England, admiring its sloped ceiling, small twin
bed, and lovely window looking out over the street. This is
where John lived and created music for 18 years. Posters of
Brigitte Bardot, his favorite ‘60s actress, line the wall
above his bed, and John’s own art sketches and writings
adorn his other walls.
From this tiny room was
born music that changed the world, mine in particular. Yet it’s
such a small cocoon, this room that fits only me and one other
adult, the custodian hired by Yoko Ono to protect the home she
refurbished to look exactly as it looked when John lived here
until 1963. Ono donated this home to the National Trust so that
it would be forever preserved as part of history.
Colin Hall, the well-educated, softspoken custodian tells me
that John spent many hours a day sitting on this bed dreaming
up a better life, sketching his visions and writing music while
he gazed out of this window at the tree tops – all the
way to Strawberry Fields, an orphanage a few miles away.
It makes me cry to remember
the moment I first heard a Beatles song and how deeply it rocked
my world. Standing in this room, I can imagine the birth of
that powerful music and the pain that inspired John’s
genius. Closing my eyes, I feel John’s creative brilliance
burning up these walls, his restlessness, and his dark and powerful
grief, the pain that fueled his work.
“This room brings
many people to tears,” says Colin standing beside me.
And, yes, you can feel the sadness that hung over this bedroom
when John was brought to live here in his Aunt Mimi’s
house at the age of five, already abandoned by both parents.
His father had long disappeared, and his mother, Julia, had
gone to live with her new boyfriend.
Young John was brought
to this house to be raised properly by his mother’s sister,
Mimi, and her husband George. John’s mother continued
to visit him here and tried to maintain a relationship with
him. But she soon started a new family with her boyfriend, and
John was never brought to live with them.
In this house, John’s new life unfolded. He grew to love
Mimi’s husband, George, who became a nurturing father
figure to him. But when John turned 15, Uncle George died suddenly
and John, once again, felt the devastating loss of someone he
loved and needed.
It was in this abandoned, struggling world that John spent his
hours sketching, playing guitar, and writing poetry and music.
He excelled in art class at his local high school, but flunked
his other subjects, causing endless arguments with Aunt Mimi.
Mimi was convinced that John’s fascination with rock and
roll would ruin his life, and she only allowed him to play guitar
on the front porch. This didn’t stop John from pursuing
his music passion; in high school, he started a rock band called
Johnny and the Moondogs, which soon became The Quarry Men.
When John turned 17, his mother Julia, on a visit to see him,
was hit by a car while crossing the street in front of Mimi’s
house. She died instantly. John was, once again, devastated
by loss and poured his pain into music.
That same year, John’s
band was invited to play for a local church feast. After
the gig was over, John was introduced to 15-year-old Paul McCartney,
a young musician who was also grieving the loss of his mother
to breast cancer. Paul comforted himself with memories and music,
teaching himself to play guitar and write music in the living
room of his cramped home in this poorer section of Liverpool.
When John invited Paul to become part of his band,
the Lennon-McCartney genius was born. Even though they were
still young high school boys, they quickly began writing music
together, hanging out in the front porch of Aunt Mimi’s
house, smoking cigarettes, exchanging lyrics, laughing and dreaming
up a better life.
Their inspired music that the world came to love
so passionately didn’t come from privilege, opportunity,
brilliant teachers and all the advantages of life today. Their
music came from dreams that were launched in loneliness and
grief. From grief, came their longing to uplift and inspire
others who needed love, who felt lonely, or abandoned.
When Beatle music first began filtering into my local Alabama
radio station and filling the airwaves of my world with a new
sound, a new dream, I was only 12 years old. Yet it spoke to
me in ways that John and Paul, light years away, could never
have imagined.
From their brilliant new sound, I understood that life was expansive
and carried endless possibility. When I heard their voices in
harmony, I realized we were truly all connected, and that anyone
from anywhere could have an extraordinary life, even me. How
that inspiration was delivered around the world in simple words
such as “She Loves You” was the miracle of the Beatles.
Now, as I turn to leave John’s small room,
I offer a simple prayer of gratitude to John for turning his
pain into music. I tell him that I can’t imagine a world
without his lyrics. And I can’t imagine the course my
life would have taken without the Beatles. I blow a kiss into
the empty room and say “Thank you, John.”
Whenever you feel lost, alone, depressed or hopeless,
consider this: that dark, powerful pain is your gift. Dig deep
and feel it, then use it as your fuel. Make the world a better
place by offering to others what you wish had been offered to
you.
Take a moment right now to imagine two teen-aged boys from Liverpool
living in poverty, with no opportunities for a better future,
and grieving the losses of their loved ones. Now picture these
boys hanging out on Aunt Mimi’s small front porch, playing
guitar, laughing, and writing music about love, in spite of
the grief and pain in their lives.
Imagine their pure, fearless intention, their
innocent, inspired joy turning itself into magic and love, and
spreading across the world, changing everything in its path.
That was the gift of the Beatles.
Now, you try it. See if you can imagine taking one small step
in a brave new direction, in spite of all your pain and losses.
That step will be your greatest gift to the world.
Author and career intuitive Sue Frederick’s work has
been featured in The New York Times, Yoga Journal, Natural
Health and Fit Yoga, and at venues like The
Crossings Retreat Center. She’s the author of Brilliant
Day and I See Your Dream Job, released in September 2009.
For more info, visit www.CareerIntuitive.
org or call 303-939-8574.